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Saturday, 3 November 2018

i am the mountain, the mountain is me

A fear of heights and the edge is not a fear of Death. It is a fear of Life, of living beyond your comfort and the safety of what you know.
e.macairt 
When I look down the valley my heart trembles, a mild excited anxiety, it is a lack of breath, forgetting to breathe, the drop is so deep, the bottom so far.
My fear is one of trust...do I trust myself not to throw myself over or to miss my footing and plummet  to my death, falling...falling, body hanging gnarled and broken on the trunk of a tree half way down, my skull battered blood red on rocks.
But do I trust you Mountain? Do I trust you to keep your form and not crumble beneath my feet, to let me stand and look at the view that fills my heart and body with an awesome peace. Do I trust this relationship we are having Mountain? Can we live together? If I open my heart to you Mountain will you honour or crush me?
illustration drawn on the Wanderers Retreat at EcoDharma e.macairt
I camp on the edge of the North Ridge, at first I was too scared to sleep this close. "come closer" I hear you whisper. "the view is magnificent from here"..."put your tent close to the edge right here by these rocks and trees, don't hide down there"
Gently I open up to the possibility that I can trust myself to be this close. I can trust the Mountain to hold my weight, to support me. I no longer need to make myself smaller  or compromise my experience for fear or lack of confidence.
"in that way I mirror you Mountain"



Wednesday, 31 October 2018




Weary of all who come with words,
words but no language
I make my way to the snow-covered island.
The untamed has no words.
The unwritten pages spread out on
every side!
I come upon the tracks of deer in the
snow.
Language but no words.

Tomas Tranströmer

Tuesday, 2 October 2018

Dartmoor





Crossing over to the Moors..."I've pitched my tent on a small farm at the foot of the moors. I'm lying in a buried stone circle sheltered from the bitter autumnal wind coming from the West. When you cross the threshold from the familiar land of trees and hedgerows to the bleakness of the moors there's a shift in energy. It's strong, spiralling, disobeying and rebellious, air whirling, an energy that feels creative, raw, sacral, rooted yet unbounded and free flowing..."

Sunday, 23 September 2018

Dark Night of the Soul

“The capacity to be alone is the capacity to love. It may look paradoxical to you, but it’s not. It is an existential truth: only those people who are capable of being alone are capable of love, of sharing, of going into the deepest core of another person–without possessing the other, without becoming dependent on the other, without reducing the other to a thing, and without becoming addicted to the other.
They allow the other absolute freedom, because they know that if the other leaves, they will be as happy as they are now. Their happiness cannot be taken by the other, because it is not given by the other.” ~ Osho

Wednesday, 19 September 2018

Ramblings on Rites Of Passage


I feel lucky to be from the last generation of teenagers that lived without mobile phones. We were on the cusp of two worlds... as children without the internet our adult lives soon became internet based. The introduction of mobile/smart phones brought with it the smooth takeover of internet based communication. I remember being 16 and swearing that I never wanted to own a mobile phone. At 18 I moved to London to study and my Mum gave me one...rarely using it, possibly not even on a daily basis. Was moving out and getting a phone a form of a Rite of Passage?!

As children my generation had the freedom to go out and be untraceable...
Growing up in a village in the 1990's we spent a lot of time away from adults in the wild making our own worlds with no adult control, no satnav, no location devices or possibility of text messaging or 4G. We were told not to come back too late and our parents trusted us and the world. We roamed for miles away from our houses, exploring the landscape of rabbit warrens, woods, hills, rivers and springs. This sense of freedom and space to grow with my peers or alone gave me an important foundation of self reliance and a connection to the natural world that I carried with me to adulthood.
 As teenagers we went to schools where bullying was prevalent but when we went home it stayed at school...there were no online forums or Facebook, snapchat or Instagram, internet gaming...at the end of my school years we had no more than one hour classroom time on a computer per week. And home computers were game consoles where you could play Super Mario Kart or WWF usually as a two player with a friend or sibling physically in the room with you.
I never experienced a Rite of Passage. The closest experience to one was when my period started. I remember wanting it to arrive because to me it meant I was no longer a little child, I was a step closer to being an independent woman! I have an older sister and she told me a lot about what to expect. My mum was also supportive and they gave me sanitary towels, told me about tampons, that my body was getting ready for the potential of having babies and then that was that. There was no significant transition and definitely no ceremony or sacred space. The internet didn't exist to personally research and I'm not sure I'd have even known what it was I wanted to look up. If I had a daughter I would like to create some kind of ceremony to mark what I believe to be an important transitioning time, and it seems that there is a growing popularity in celebrating the menarche today with mothers creating their own ceremonies based on red tent philosophies and women's circles. I'm sure that the statistics of anxiety related to the menarche could be greatly reduced by a positive Rite of Passage. 

How are teenagers dealing with the pressures of social media and the modern world? With no clear  Rite of Passage and a lack of community, teenagers resort to creating their own. There are many studies suggesting that gangs are formed through lack of a structured community supported rite of passage. Gangs and knife crime amongst inner city teenagers are on the rise, whilst community centres are forced to close down due to lack of government funding. Mental Health and self harm abuse issues in girls aged 11-16 are also on the rise.


I am interested in answering the questions:

How could a Rite of Passage help a modern society?
Is there a place for Rites of Passage for girls and boys today?
How do they already exist in this culture?
What could we learn from other cultures?
How can a modern RoP be socially inclusive?
making fire at forest school






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Tuesday, 4 September 2018

hidden life of trees

Foret de Troncais


Ancient Oaks and Scotts Pine in the Foret de Troncais 
'Embrace' etching limited edition of 10 available in my shop.
"a tree can only be as strong as the forest that surrounds it"
The Hidden life of Trees , PeterWohlleben

Sunday, 2 September 2018

embrace


I love this moment when the etching is revealed

Last print for a while now as i focus on my new project Menarche & the Moon because today there still isn't enough information offered to young women... The Government is updating it's Sex and Relationship education, please sign the petition to get Menstrual Wellbeing included. change.org

Monday, 20 August 2018

menarche

During my research for 'Menarche &  the Moon' I often find myself crying….the struggle and passion of the human spirit to make a positive change is breathtaking and emotionally charged. From inequality, injustice, hardship and tragedy people rise up against the odds. I've discovered projects like the Grandmothers movement in Africa, and the WonderGirls encouraging the empowerment of young girls, supporting and putting a spotlight on the work young women have achieved by speaking their minds to fight for what they believe in through activism in their community and beyond to achieve successes like abolishing child marriage in Malawi. I've come across amazonian jungle childbirth passage to womanhood, the Kinaalda ceremony of the Navajo, Quinceanera of Mexico…. it touches me deeply and with this i know i’m on the right path, my heart is touched and i know this is a project i cannot give up on. 

Recent statistics reveal a 68% rise in self harm of girls aged 13-16 years in the UK. I want to look at why and how we can help.

"...when you lack a rite of passage experience, there are extraordinary consequences related to such problem behaviours as violence, substance use, gangs, bullying and delinquency" Scott D Sheer, Ohio State University

I'm interested in investigating into whether our lack of community and an appropriate positive rite of passage for our youth in the UK is linked with the mental health crisis.


 If you have experience or any knowledge you would like to share with me please get in touch to help me with the research for my guidebook for young women 'Menarche & the Moon'.

 please e-mail if you would like to help me with my research by filling out my short questionnaire. i am looking for information from women who have experience of the menstrual cycle and the menarche (our first menstrual period)  
thank you in advance
Erin
 elezmac@hotmail.com

a room with a view

the traveller sees what he sees 
the tourist sees what he has come to see
e.m.forster

Sunday, 29 July 2018

Danza de la Luna


Here are some images that inspired this years MOON PHASE CALENDAR 
I love the old alchemical drawings made using oak gall ink and natural pigments, which is what I used to create the original piece of artwork.
I've recently discovered Danza de la Luna...the largest dance in the world held in Mexico....a prayer to Mother Earth. One of my dreams is to dance this dance...I'm putting that out there to the Universe.

detail from 2019 Moon Phase Calendar . erin macairt

Saturday, 28 July 2018

LUNAR ECLIPSE

detail:2019 moon calendar . erin macairt
What does the lunar eclipse mean to you if you didn't look up what the astrologers are saying?! 

 Instinctively I know the moon and I are intrinsically connected. Our calendars and our 7 day week are based on the cycles of the moon. Women's menstrual cycles are roughly the same 28 day cycle as the moon. I created a booklet for women to chart their periods with the moon making it easy to know when you're period is due or when you're ovulating with each phase of the moon. Seeing the full moon never fails to fill me with awe and wonder, giving me a sense of oneness.  
The lunar eclipse is when the shadow of the Earth passes across the face of the moon hiding her from the light of the sun...this rare occurrence of seeing the shadow of the Earth is special. The Moon turns a blood red. 
A time for me to look at my own shadow? What is my shadow, how does it operate? Am I in control of my shadow or does it take charge? Am I friends with my shadow? Do I accept it?  Tonight is a time to draw up those shadow elements and to clean the slate to start again... As the shadow passes it might be a perfect time to reflect on these questions. As the light from the Sun returns perhaps new light will be shed. 
 When we make sacred space in our lives magic happens.
Sacred space doesn't need to include grand gestures or shrines...it is held with the intent you give...personally it is an internal and external exchange, and an awareness of the interconnection of everything on this planet and beyond.

Friday, 27 July 2018

the path unfolds

with clear and pure intent the path unfolds as i take each step


detail from 2019 Moon Calendar



for whatever reason one day we can be flowing through life with total ease...then the following day thrown out of balance...which in turn tends to lead us to reinforce those old negative pathways we've been working so hard to break down.  It can be default to fall into our old patterns of thoughts and behaviour...it's like taking the path we know so well  and whether it serves us or not we trust it. But when we have those down days there's always a lesson to learn, and an extra layer to peel away...it's a test to become aware and in control. Making positive changes and creating new neural pathways takes conscious awakening...I don't think it should feel like hard work, but it takes effort, devotion and dedication to want to change. If you're having one of those down days remember that you have the power to react to situations in anyway you want. I'm telling myself this as much as to the ethereal world wide web. It's always good to have a reminder. 

Take a risk by simply letting it all go and trusting that with clear and pure intent in the present moment the path you want to be on unfolds as you keep moving through life. Take the path unknown...

Friday, 6 July 2018

2019 Moon Calendar

2019
Moon Calendar 

it's here

painted by hand using natural earth pigments and dyes...
mysterious
wholesome
earthy
for all moon lovers and bathers alike

  
Erin Macairt 2019 Moon Phase Calendars available at LANDofERIN                                                         
                                                      
  for full image please visit the shop

MOONRISE TIMES
EQUINOX
SOLSTICE
SUPERMOONS





reaping what you sow


the willow trees outside my boat drop millions of seeds every year. For about a month we get this stunningly beautiful scene as the wind disperses them through the air
copper amulets
I've been experimenting with the etching process and instead of using it to print not paper I wanted to make some special amulets to be worn as necklaces. I've made the cordage using the skills i learnt at WILDHEART festival and instead of nettles i've made them from linen flax from Normandy, France.

Copper is associated with the Goddess of LOVE 

An amulet is an object that is typically worn on one's person, that some people believe has the magical or miraculous power to protect its holder"

available to buy here: LANDofERIN

Friday, 16 February 2018

Myth - E-ZINE Wake Up Screaming

I contributed to this months edition of Wake Up Screaming a monthly e-zine published every New Moon by illustrator Matt Witt. The theme was MYTH.
"The landscape of Myth are not fantasy nor fairyland. Myth resonates deep within our inherited memories."

Please visit: MYTH/7

Monday, 12 February 2018

Hello!
My name is Erin Macairt...along with El one of my nicknames is 'Fang' because i have one and I like it.  I have been drawing and creating for as long as I can remember....that is one thing about me that is a constant... an eb & flow...a breath in & out, high tides and low tides, white water or bubbling brook....creativity has always been flowing // mediums change and herbs might replace paint or textiles to paper.

I feel grateful to my parents for their encouraging support for total creative freedom when I was a kid.

If you're interested in buying any of my work please visit:
My Shop
Land Of Erin
My Portfolio
www.erinmacairt.com
For commissions and enquiries:
 erinmacairt@gmail.com
THANK YOU
X


Sunday, 24 December 2017

thank you

Thank you to All who have filled my year with LOVE, for All the lessons I have learned, the awakenings and openings. Thank you to All the people who have supported my creative Work. 
thank you from my heart
X

Monday, 27 November 2017

define yourself

"So, what do you do?"

"we are not our attachments. in fact, we need not define ourselves at all — we are beyond definition, for who we truly are changes with each passing moment "


Sunday, 12 November 2017

Autumn


I've not posted here for awhile. It's been a busy and wonderful year with an extremely sad start. Losing my bestfriend from school was pure heart break and I still don't feel like it has actually happened. But through the emotions and experience of losing another friend I feel driven to live the gift of life we have been given and honour her life and those who have physically left us. I love you and whilst I am here and those who loved you are, a part of you will be here too.

 This year I set about learning to love myself, all of me. Being aware of the negative and shadow aspects we all hold and consciously calling them out has been transformative in my approach to life. Creating new pathways in the brain and realising that thoughts can be changed...we are responsible for the lives we have created for ourselves.Yoga has been a little magic, meditation, Nature Connection, Herbs (mugwort), Trees, Louise Hay, Carolyn Hillyer, Workshops, Sacred Places, Stone Circles, Connecting with the Divine, Ritual, Ceremony, diving into the wild ocean and feeling the salty water envelop my body sun reflecting in gem like glimmers, learning about the power of Intent and learning new skills. I feel whole. I have opened my heart and the Universe is showering me with love and blessings.
I'll never stop learning and being inspired by the mysteries...
SMILE

Tuesday, 15 August 2017

smudge, linen, tree of life...




                        


@erinmacairt
 2018 Moon Phase Calendars
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Monday, 10 July 2017

Group Exhibition



I'm in a Group exhibition that OPENS THIS WEEK...Please come and have a look. It's held at the Gallery at Coexist, Hamilton House Bristol. My work in the show is based on the landscapes that surround Bristol and how a major part of the beauty of Bristol is that amazing landscapes surround the city and it's not too long before you're in the countryside...... x x x